5:19
As a whole, this week is really stressing me out. I’m glad I’m writing in this again, or else I think I’d explode. This week just makes me want to go berzerk. I just want to go back up to camp, where I had no worries, nothing mattered except for these wonderful people around me, and drama didn’t exist— because surprisingly, we worked everything out (and using only our eyes too.)
But not even peer processing would have fixed what you both just did to me. By talking behind my back, you both betrayed my trust. You both really completely broke my trust and faith in you two, and if you want to pursue what you’re doing, then go ahead— by all means. It just means I’ll cut you out from my life. I may be young, but I already know what kind of people I want in my life. Acting like you care about someone, and actually caring about them are two different things. I’m sorry I trusted you both enough to not be able to differentiate for awhile. Most of all, I’m sorry I trust you both enough over my own instincts. I knew that it was going to happen and I let it happen, because I trusted you both enough to let it not happen. That sentence doesn’t make any sense, but in my head it does.
I don’t need you both in my life right now. Especially with the week I’m having.